Its Sunday..Im in Love!!!

Every Sunday I fall in love, you know? A love that suffocates me! I cannot read, hang out, talk with people or anything! Because im in love!! For whom or what?? Como’n ..This a difficult question!!!

So, i try to find love in my dark room smelling of incense, tobacco, coffee! But of course ... I do not find it! Reason: There is no love in objects, in the sun that comes from the window .. in the mosquitoes noise that arrived with the summer heat!!! In order to, I decide to find love in my emails, sms, social network ..!!! And sometimes I find feelings in this parallel world that we became so included somehow ..But It is not something tangible .. ..  real!! The parallel world gives us a delicate love, a love that goes beyond .. do not feel jealousy, anger, revenge, boredom or stress! Its just a love that would help you in the most ... in a matter of seconds!
But what love am i looking for?? Im sure its not the one above... Eventhough I cannot live without it! Because I couldn’t  imagine my life in these distant lands without email, text messages ... comments!! Those i read and re-read it soo many times! And It comforts me so much .. !!!

But today is Sunday...And i wanna a true love! A love of skin and bone! A couple love ... full of discussions.. silly things, full of questions like: What did you do during the day .. what did u have for lunch? Full of anger and apologies ... Yes.. what I want a possessive love, childish and selfish! Im tired of showing im strong, determined .. superwoman! I want a love that makes me change my religion, sex and life ..! A love that comes to india! Because the place does not matter .. and everything will become beautiful and quiet!

So I say: Yes, I would trade all this superficial world love for just one day .. one day of Love ...Love of possession, love with real feelings, love of being together! A Sunday Love!!

Domingo: estou apaixonada!!

Todo domingo me sinto apaixonada sabe?? Um paixão que me sufoca!! Não consigo ler, sair, ver pessoas ou qualquer coisa! Eu tento achar amor em algum lugar do meu quarto escuro com cheiro de incenso, cigarro café! Mas é claro...Não acho!! Porque não existe amor nos objetos, no sol que vem da janela..no barulho dos mosquitos que chegam com o calor do verão!! Então sempre decido encontrar amor nos meus email, sms..social network!!! Dentro deste mundo paralelo que nos tornamos tão inclusos ali..que as vezes confundimos que isso não é algo palpável..real..com sentimentos!! Mas é o único que encontro amor...especialmente nos domingos!! Que amor?? Um amor delicado, um amor que vai além..que não sente ciúme, raiva, vingança, tédio ou estresse!! Um amor que lhe ajudaria nos momentos mais sem graças de sua vida...em questões de segundos!!

Então eu encontro amor...Amor este que no fundo não quero, mas que não consigo viver sem!! Não consigo imaginar minha vida nestas terras distantes sem email, comentários...mensagens curtas!! Estas que leio e releio tantas vezes!! E me confortam muito..e ao mesmo tempo..me deixam sem esperanças... Esperança de viver um amor de verdade!!! Um amor de pele e osso!! Um amor de casal...cheio de brigas por coisas bobas, cheio de perguntas como: O que você fez durante o dia..o que almoçou?? Cheio de raivas e pedidos de desculpas...Sim..o que eu quero é um amor de posse, infantil e egoísta!!! Chega que querermos mostrarmos que somos fortes, determinados..supermulheres!!! Quero um amor que me faça mudar de religião, sexo..vida!! Que ele venha até a india!! Porque o lugar não importa..pois tudo se tornará belo e calmo!!

Por isso digo: Sim, eu trocaria todo esse amor deste mundo superficial..Por apenas um dia de Amor de posse...Amor de amar, amor de sentir, amor de estar junto!!! Um amor de domingo!!

The President Letter!!!

What to do on a Friday Night In India (P.S: im not doing tourism here, im paying my sins studying ok!)?? Believe me.. The options are almost Zero. So, in order to make my night better..i decided to write a list of possible things i could maybe waste my precious time!! 1° item from my list: Check out the KC market..theres always people over there!! 2°: Walk to the farther place that sell cigarettes..It would keep me 2 hours walking with a good purpose..and also lose some calories i’ve gained eating so many Indians sweeties!!! 3°: Make friendship with my dorm neighboors..they always cook  good Thai food...and i found beers bottles in their garbage (10 points for this item).. 4°: Study..How i haven’t thought about that???..Maybe, because it’s being a while i realized im not a study person..And i quit few weeks ago when i was in the class and i didn’t know about Durkheim..(im doing a Master.. guess in which field?? social sciences #fail)!! 5° The last item and winner of my list: write a letter for the President of Brazil (YAY)...It would be something different right??? And it could also revolutionize my life!!

Now, ive decided..I dont know what to write?? It should be interesting, because im sure that shes definitely a busy woman (not like me at all) and do not has time to read all bullshit that comes to her place!! Ok..i have to be smart (minus 10 points to this sentence)..and try to solve the brazil problems!!! Which problems do we have, by the way??? I know..we have poverty, violence, drugs..social inequalities..Hole crap..Me and 90% of the world already know all these problems above!!

Thinking..Thinking...Thinking..My head is totally insane here in India!!! Especially after the Tsunami..and Earthquake in Japan!! My theory for my Insanity is that the Nuclear damage in Japan is spread through the cyber space and we are all getting radiation somehow ... Actually..Im THE ONE getting this!! I already told my mom..sorry for being insane..But its all Japan fault!! She felt relieved for do not blame her!! Last week i had PEE crisis whole night..also Japan Fault!!

Ok Ok...back to the President letter..I always lose my attention and forget to find it!! .. After all daydreams...I got the subject for the letter...How??? I remembered i was flying (thousandth time) and i took the aircompany magazine and the cover page more or less said: BRAZIL ...an exotic place where you will find the most beautiful women in the world...and more more stuff like that!! First i laughed thinking... Hole crap..I was borned in brazil and not even the beauty i got it (so unfair) .. And now, i will have to say sorry when someone ask my nationally!!! And also say: dont worry if you go to brazil i promise find a beautiful woman for you!! Because im a bit kaputt you know!! (For those who doesnt know the meaning of Kaputt... because are stupid as me..And do not speak german..even had lived there..the meaning is Broken)!!!!

Then.. I thought..Fuck.. i know the solution to save Brazil!! This willbe the subject of my Letter!! WOMEN!! How many foreigners go to fuck with Brazilians?? Its unbelieveble huge..the amount of people!! And during carnival?? No comments... So those foreigners GO there..have pleasure for free..use our body..and then..say bye bye!! What??

So..im going to write now the President to say that instead of spend days discussing about the legalization of drugs..  How do get more taxes from the population....Why do not put a law charging every single foreigner who fuck with a Brazilian?? They should at least pay for their pleasure!!! It would be the best business ever!! Our country would have so much Money!!

So..That’s it ..I found something to do on my Friday night in India!!!